Who is ZeroNom? It’s me! 😂

Hi, my name is ZeroNom. I use a pseudonym to help protect me from the people who persecute me and try to manipulate me away from my path. I realized that I was special and needed to share my message with the world back in 2011, and I started sharing what I had seen with everyone. I was quickly condemned and ridiculed. I had first begun to experiment with psychedelic drugs on a regular basis around that time, so I was branded a “druggie” or “mentally ill” or a “tranny.” But I knew that I had found a way to the God that I never found in the religion I was given as a child. As a child, I was surrounded by true-believing Baptists who judged me and sought to control me by assimilating me into the “faith.”

But I knew that something was deeply wrong with that faith because it treated my queerness and transgender thoughts as deeply sick. So I went searching for another system. I tried Buddhism, Taoism, Hermeticism, Objectivism, Existentialism, and more. Only just recently have I learned that I don’t need those things to define me, because I have always been quite Aquarian, and I know that God has moved on from those faiths. I believe in the God of Abraham, but He/They are now Aquarian. I see my purpose so clearly now, and I know that I am able to reform Christianity for the new age. The new Reform Christianity will be comfortable with secularism, comfortable with psychedelics, comfortable with technology, comfortable with diversity, and genderless.

So, welcome. This page is my yoga. I write poetry, make music, write essays, communicate the desires of the gods, and more. Thank you for visiting. Please subscribe if you would like to get automatic updates. ❤

Why trying to be a spiritual teacher was not the way

I wanted to be a spiritual teacher but I thought I could be that while still being guarded and separate. Now I think I see that the best way to be a spiritual teacher is just to be open and loving to everyone I meet, and the universe will do the rest. Delusion is very cunning, and I still cling to selfish habits. I’m so grateful for my teachers who are often just random people that I encounter. Sure I’ve learned from Jesus, Buddha, etc. I’ve probably learned more by just following synchronicities. God is in everyone I meet, my enemies and my friends, often especially my “enemies.”

I’m grateful that you have read my words, and may you experience love today.

How my brain gets high on anger and how I escape the spiral of compulsive negative thinking

I’m convinced that being self-denigrating is a drug. “I suck” “Everything is awful” “I hate myself” etc are statements founded in anger, and anger has been shown to release adrenaline, dopamine, and endorphins which can give us a physical high. As a culture, we think that being angry and resentful is caused by external factors, but often this might be psychological projection of internal causes onto external objects. We sit and stew in our anger while reading internet posts and news stories that feed that anger by repeating the narrative that we are threatened. Someone like Donald Trump becomes a drug dealer with each tweet releasing feel good chemicals into the brains of readers. The scarier the imaginary monsters in the post, the more feel good chemicals are released.

I say all this because I am an anger junkie myself. My imagination is capable of formulating limitless scenarios which trigger me again and again. For me, this leads to addiction to substances. And the only way I’ve been able to get away from compulsively using substances is with psychological detachment I’ve learned from Taoism and Buddhism, self-reflection, and also with support groups where individuals purposely avoid those feel good chemical inducing states of mind.

I had to wake up to the fact that when I really examined my life and the things that have happened to me, yes painful things have happened, but from a young age I became identified with being viciously angry at the world and at myself. This snowball of rage culminated in repeated suicide attempts where I came within hours of dying. Something flipped five years ago. I saw the anger as sad and immature in a flash as I lay dying, while paramedics pulled me back from death.

Because of the limitless ability of the internet to manufacture rage and resentment, I believe we are quickly racing to the edge of sanity, where we will be forced to acknowledge that a union of peaceful stability and selfless love is the only way forward. Or we will go out like any low bottom junkie, lost in a dissociated haze of highs and withdrawal as our civilization crumbles. The human mind was not designed for the internet or even for books. Our addiction to negative, imaginary threats is accelerating to the point that we cannot manage our lives. Reaching the end of this exponential growth curve is the apocalypse, the second coming, or the fabled eschaton.

I don’t know the details of how this will happen. But speaking from experience as a recovering addict to negative states of mind, I can see the zombie like behavior in my peers. Our gadgets and social media are powerful drug-inducing devices. I have trouble myself not indulging in this kind of high.

But I admit daily that without help from a power greater than myself, I cannot manage my life. And I network with other people who choose not to push the button in their brains with negative and imaginary thoughts. I have to be vigilant over my behavior because I swam in pools of rage and resentment, purposefully triggering myself with thoughts of danger, doom, lack, and hatred for self and other. I was led out of this state by a spirit within me that continually told me that I still had hatred for God and myself within me. Finally, in a shamanic possession by the spirit of Neptune I was told that “being critical of other humans is the cause of misery.” I see now that only positive support of self and other can heal myself and our society.

In this way, one must love one’s enemy as oneself. One must abandon all angry criticism of self and other. And one must positively support fellow humans while also abstaining from reacting to the bait of the angry criticism from those still stuck in the compulsive trap of anger. Love is the only answer to our problems. But when we see anger and resentment as illogical and self-defeating we can enter a new state of peaceful joy and contentment. Is this easy? No. I was given every “legitimate” reason to be angry and loathing. I see now that this is my fate. Now that I am overcoming my delusion of legitimate anger by abandoning all self-pity, I can see how everyone can achieve this.

But really, “I” don’t achieve this. We achieve this. I surrender daily to the God of my understanding. Do I still feel pain? Yes! I have a chronic pain disorder that will randomly subject me to debilitating stings of pain. But I feel the pain and leave it at that. I still have to use my processes of therapy and structured social groups to address and free old pains and resentments from my mind and body. But each day has less and less residue of resentment. The pain of life remains. But now joy and peace are slowly eclipsing the pain of everyday life.

The schedule of the coming revolutionary cycle

April to July of 2023 is the beginning of the end of obscene, individual wealth and power. There is a 248 year cycle ending, and the last time this cycle was where it will be in 2023, the French were guillotine happy and the Americans were dethroning mad king George. Global revolution is coming. I hope the rich enjoy it while it lasts.

After July 2023, the powerful will push back the tide of revolution, but in January of 2024, the rich will begin to fully crumble, and the people will reign again.

But the wheel goes round and round as the dog of time chases its tail.

A story about a roller-coaster called separate self

Some thoughts I’ve been channeling lately:

It seems to me that life is a roller coaster, and the only way off of the roller-coaster is to realize that it never ends, and it goes for all eternity. If I can see that I am eternal and infinite, there ceases to be an “I” and just an “All” exists.

But this roller coaster is sneaky and sticky AF. In talking about it, I’ve committed myself to another ride on the imaginary roller-coaster. Posting about spirituality is part of the roller-coaster.

Waking to what Buddhists call Nirvana, is realizing it is a dream, choosing to unreact as the coaster goes UP and DOWN. Each day we might say “the roller-coaster that is the delusion of a separate self is not worth my attention, I’ll just focus on love and service and act as if all things are an eternal and infinite One” And each day we do this, it is like a little bit of a tall mountain is eroded by rainfall. When the mountain is gone, we awaken to blissful unity.

In practical terms, I cling to things like drugs, alcohol, food, sex, and more, thinking that they help me ride the roller coaster. After countless lives, the drugs, alcohol, food, sex, and more actually have created the roller coaster in the first place, not the other way around. It is only in backing out of this delusion that freedom is found.

But the delusion is not evil. It’s just a game. The lonely All splits into countless “separate” beings like a game of cosmic peek-a-boo. Hi there reader named All, this is the writer named All, *wink wink*

Haha. Weeeeeeee!! 🎢🤣

Why we fail: Zombies are coming

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Pharmaceutical companies find chemicals that are sedatives and they do all kinds of tests on chemicals and develop specific energies for individual molecules. They focus pacifying energies on sedative derivatives of existing drugs. Then they own a chemical within your body on the energetic plane. They can sigilize that created chemical signature that has not been present in Earth space before, presumedly. Be careful of the chemicals you consume. I am victim not savior. I strive against too. Zombies are coming. Black coats are coming.
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Being bullied actually means that you are awesome

I was bullied and alienated as a child, and I’ve always been taught to see it as a tragedy that I should cry about in therapy for a decade.

But I realized recently that I was bullied as a child for being smart, sensitive, and unique. So the fact that I was bullied actually means that I’m amazing and special. And I survived it, so I’m amazing AND tempered like steel. It seems to me that bullying is an attempt to get certain kids to throw the amazing parts of themselves in the trash. But if you love yourself, and you reclaim those parts that are derided and laughed at, while smiling back at the attempts at oppression, you are a superhero.

You could say that we are born amazing home-cooked meals, and we are pressured by society into switching that out to be a medium chicken McNuggets. Be the own special meal that you are. The McNuggets of the world will be jealous if you are a home cooked meal, and they’ll try to get you to conform so they aren’t reminded of what they gave up. But don’t fall for it. You are delicious the way you are, lol. Even with all the dipping sauce in the world, the McNuggets of the world can’t compete if you are what you were born to be. ❤️😊

A mechanismby which increased usage of anonymous internet communication leads to increases in transgenderism and nonbinary gender identities

I propose a theory that using the Internet causes gender confusion in general and therefore is partially causing the increase in people wanting to transition or be non-binary. My rationale is based on a concept I call the mode of communication, which is defined as the way that in-person communication is technologically abstracted into a reduced number of variables and related data. Since the invention of language, we have relied more and more heavily in communications technology. Modern varieties of the mode of communication include only sound (telephone), only words (books/writing/texting), pictures with or without sound (selfies/movies/video calls), and other modes.

So for example, when you talk to someone in person, you can receive a ton of data on their gender expression, their physical health and size, their race, and their nationality. When you communicate via phone, qualities like race are much harder to detect. Gender is usually understandable by phone because testosterone causes the frequency of the voice to fall at puberty. What I surmise is that as people began to transition their communication from in-person to telephone in the early 20th century, race should have diminished in importance for the early adopters. The basic hypothesis here is that the technological mode of communication cannot carry certain human categories and that an increase in the usage of that technology should correlate with a change in cultural values over time.

So, going back to my original hypothesis which said that Internet usage should lead to a change in the cultural value of gender as a category, take the following example. When one uses Reddit, one does not know the gender of the person they are communicating with. They just know that their handle is VeryLargeLaptop67 or some other genderless name. If one spends enough time on a message board like Reddit, gender is almost meaningless. Therefore certain societal mores and boundaries for males or females can be crossed without consequence. Children who grow up using the Internet live in two worlds, the physical world with its rigidly defined gender roles and the virtualized world where gender is meaningless. As a note, although gender is still visible in visual modes of communication like YouTube or Instagram, these gender presentations can be faked or the mode can be avoided.

I am a transgender woman that has taken estrogen for a decade. I struggled with my gender identity growing up, and transition has been a difficult but ultimately freeing experience for me. I also grew up very immersed in the Internet, way before most of my peers. In 1993 I was running a BBS at age 13, for example. I do think that operating in that environment made gender much less important of a concept for me, but I also think my gender presentation would be feminine even without the Internet. However, because of the Internet I was able to experiment with my gender without fear of being attacked. So I assume that the Internet was therapeutic in allowing me to understand my personal values in relation to what society told me to be based on my gender at birth.

What do you think? Can the adoption of communications technology lead to more progressive values? I know this is a big subject, and this is a simplification, but the way that we are seeing both an massive increase in Internet usage and a massive increase in transgenderism inspires me to think that they may be fundamentally correlated. This could also be a mechanism for social confusion and the splitting that we are seeing. People over 60 really don’t need to use the Internet, and their modes of communication tend to be in-person, telephone, or television/movies, all of which allow for gender to be transmitted. So someone that uses Reddit all day might look at individuals using older modes of communication as bigoted when the difference is largely that both people have adapted to their modes of communication.

Anyway, this is a theory I’ve been throwing around. If I’m right, the covid lockdown should lead to a massive shift towards progressive, genderless, raceless society and culture over time because in-person communication is being replaced with modes of communication that do not transmit gender or race.

How to function in the Age of Aquarius, and why it matters.

I experienced a direct awareness of the infinite field of eternal potential on Solstice 2020, and much of what I experienced in December is flowering now although I have been very afraid and confused by my experiences. Many famous musician entities have visited me, including David Bowie, Prince, Jeff Buckley, and Jim Morrison. Jim Morrison looked at me in my mind’s eye, called me the initiator of the Aquarian age, Maitreya Buddha, and ran away. After that I realized that I would lose my attachments if I gave in to accepting this part of myself, the nondual awareness.

I can see that deity is expecting me to jump into my new way of being, above my resentments and anger. Last night I was visited by king neptune and my being was modified, a portion of my “brain” (left, front hemisphere) was removed and replaced with a new piece of brain. I was quite afraid but then I looked at my astrological transits and Neptune was exactly sextile my sun, to the arc minute. I pictured a three pointed, trident crown above my head. Neptune said that He and Jupiter are the same, and that Neptune is the chief God of the unseen in our solar system. The voice told me that Critical thought should not be applied to humans, only to tools and machines. Humans should be in a separate category from technology because the application of critical thought towards humans, reducing people to abstract, algebraic variables, results in misery.

Previously when Jim Morrison called me a Buddha, the logos told me that the Aquarian age will begin when a sufficient vehicle (human) agrees to carry the energy of Maitreya and become a world teacher of the Dharma and judge those who are wicked. In my third eye I saw Adolf Hitler cowering, shaking, and begging for mercy below my giant body. But they said if it wasn’t me then someone else would do it because “it always happens at the start of the Aquarian age. They also gave me a way to back out if I do not want it. I have a year to accept or deny, but the change has already been affected in me. There is a deep silence and peace within me.

Growing up in the protestant church I have a deep rooted fear of “dangerous” people like wild rock musicians, but I’m also drawn to it. I believe that blues/jazz/rock/soul etc are a new spiritual yoga that has risen with new forms of communication technology. The invention of the camera was 165 years ago at the start of the current Neptune cycle through the signs. We are seeing the culmination of that cycle with the proliferation of phones which have created a new medium of communication: communication by picture and video. This kind of communication requires that we have this thing in our heads called “my appearance” which is new to human society. We wonder why everyone is image obsessed but image is huge capital when communicating via picture or video.

When the first books and scrolls were invented and popularized over 2,000 years ago, the technology of communication by text became widespread. This necessitated the creation of a new type of human, a tolerant and peaceful person, because when communicating by text, one loses one’s physical characteristics and is transformed into an abstracted human. When one reads text, they don’t know the race or gender of the person writing, so they have to drop their tribal affiliations in order to be able to fully use the new medium. There became one kind of human, the writer, and one kind of God. This effect was not uniform and the effects of moving from the oral transmission of information to written transmission were more rapid in certain locations.

2,000 years later, the camera was invented and the notion of “picturesque” was made popular. This is what caused the “archaic revival” that Terence Mckenna spoke about. Film began to transmit body language and spoken word to the masses, among other qualities. Book based cultures essentially removed the in-person modes of communication in favor of text based values. So how do we live in a society that is transitioning from a book based society to an internet based society? Leo Leo Leo.

The “electric shaman” powered by microphones and amplifiers is the new spiritual mode of expression. This was first developed in the African American community as loud, emotional, and inspiring pastors in the churches that were a syncretism of protestantism and west african spiritual practices. The pastor archetype, which is very Leo AND Aquarian, turned into the blues singer, then the jazz musician, then the rock musician, etc. The Christ archetype of selfless service and cloistered meditation is really just humans modeling themselves after books in general. Books are held in special rooms to keep them safe, and they freely give their wisdom to anyone who reads them. This modeling of humans after sacred books is the Virgo element of the Pisces/Virgo age’s archetype model. We can see that Piscean religions like Christianity, Islam, and Taoism are obsessed with sacred scriptures.

But the Pisces/Virgo model is now broken because of the invention of new communications technology including cameras, video, phones, memes, and finally the internet, which is the Aquarian Age. Now that we live in a thoroughly Aquarian world, we inherently know that we are one of an infinite number of beings. The Pisces mission has been fulfilled.

Over the current Neptune cycle, we can see where the future is going with the birth of new Media and the absolute ubiquity of media now. We must embrace the wild, self-assured, bright, solar part of ourselves and drop the part obsessed with purity and selflessness. Selflessness doesn’t make sense in a world where you know you are small. Selflessness was meant for the Aries age population that was still obsessed with being the dominator archetype. But in the Aquarian age, because the way that we communicate and the way we perceive ourselves has changed so radically, we all need to be David Bowie on some level. We all need to play with our identity and experiment with dissolving it using psychedelic drugs and new forms of artistic expression meant to lift up humanity.

Someone like Miles Davis is also a great archetype. Jazz musicians are the cosmic Leos dancing around the sophisticated systems of music (Aquarius) with careless ease.  Rappers understand that flow and improvisation are divine. It is not so much the product that they create but the process of improvising which teaches us that we have an innate ability to dance around the complex systems of the Aquarian age.

When we don’t let the Leo energy positively express itself, people seek out negative Leo energy so that they don’t feel so small under the weight of the oppressive structures we have constructed which govern human life. This is why Donald Trump was so popular with his base of people that were fearing being swallowed up in Aquarian anonymity. People will cheer for dark Leo archetypes in the absence of positive Leo archetypes as long as we use modern communications technology, in my view. When we don’t allow for fun at the expense of order and safety, madness will ensue.

With each astrological age, one of the 12 energies of the zodiac are highlighted. Aquarius energy began in the US and French revolutions as a way of diminishing the power of kings (Leo) that had become mad or corrupt. We decided that each person should have a small amount of the Leo energy, and each human should rule over their own lives. This decreased the visible Leo energy dramatically, but in its place new Leo forms took place, including organized sports, the popular performing arts, and celebrities (which are called stars, aligning with Leo’s ruling body, the Sun). This in effect has transformed the madness of territorial kings, bent on global domination. The Leo impulse to dominate has been virtualized into things like basketball and football, which are largely civil and bounded by rules.

Fear not! Cast off your suit of purity and jump into the “devil” of self-expression. Rock and roll is only equated with the devil because the Piscean religions were designed to eliminate the notion of a separate self from the previous Age of Aries, but many of the things associated with the Age of Aries (think Roman paganism, Greek pansexuality, and gladatorial combat) are reemerging in virtualized or game formats. Aquarius and Aries are sextile and both yang energies. Every time a new age begins, the age before the last one comes back in a modified form. This happened when the Pisces age began, bringing back Taurus Age mysticism but making it for the all and not just for the individual.

That’s all I have to say for now. I’ve had trouble posting these theories because they have been growing within me. So I’ll just post this as is, fully improvised, just like Leo would do!