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Notes on Change

In the long run, we get what we expect for ourselves. If we put qualities of life in a basket marked “Impossible,” they will never arise. We throw happy and peaceful and harmonious in the basket, laughing cynically at those who still believe in such ridiculous concepts. In this way, we forget our birthright: our nobility and our infinitude. We delude ourselves of our potential and label the rocket engines beneath us as mere chairs to sit on. A sapling of a Redwood tree is a giant tree in potentia. We are all the highest high, in potentia. But zombified and shameful we limp wanderingly into the desert of the predictable, the deadlands of “not possible,” substituting resentment for fulfillment.

Change is possible although nearly illegal, so it is understandable that people don’t believe they have the power to transform their lives by mere thought. But I have and continue to do so. There is a process for doing so, but it can be difficult to understand and can take years or decades to achieve. If one does not believe in life after death, there seems little point to attempting dramatic and fundamental changes that require obsessive dedication and self-sacrifice.

Death is not what most modern humans believe it is. This world is the dream and we return to the real world upon death. After death, we will wake up, remembering our true nature and our last memory before we were born on Earth. We will remember what our mission was on Earth and we will compare our intentions for this life to what we actually achieved. If we did not fully live out our character on Earth, we will come back to Earth or a similar planet to try again. The lesson must be learned.

When one finally arrives at the truth, we see that it is very simple. So simple is it that trying to explain it to others seems like quite the confused affair. Poetry and music seem to do it best, so I’m a songwriter. I’ve published quite a bit of material and am playing a show this coming Sunday. I don’t know that truth can be easily transmitted in an essay. It must be seen in the monitor of one’s third eye or felt in one’s heart. It can be transmitted by resonance though. One can behave in resonance with divine truth and others can possibly align their being with the resonating frequency they are perceiving from the divinely inspired individual.

Imagine you were never born
Imagine you will never die
Imagine that you chose to be exactly where you are
Imagine you are God
Merely become what you desire

There seem to be only two choices of understanding: the choice to see that one has choice or the apathetic slavery to instinct.

Why trying to be a spiritual teacher was not the way

I wanted to be a spiritual teacher but I thought I could be that while still being guarded and separate. Now I think I see that the best way to be a spiritual teacher is just to be open and loving to everyone I meet, and the universe will do the rest. Delusion is very cunning, and I still cling to selfish habits. I’m so grateful for my teachers who are often just random people that I encounter. Sure I’ve learned from Jesus, Buddha, etc. I’ve probably learned more by just following synchronicities. God is in everyone I meet, my enemies and my friends, often especially my “enemies.”

I’m grateful that you have read my words, and may you experience love today.

Why we fail: Zombies are coming

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Pharmaceutical companies find chemicals that are sedatives and they do all kinds of tests on chemicals and develop specific energies for individual molecules. They focus pacifying energies on sedative derivatives of existing drugs. Then they own a chemical within your body on the energetic plane. They can sigilize that created chemical signature that has not been present in Earth space before, presumedly. Be careful of the chemicals you consume. I am victim not savior. I strive against too. Zombies are coming. Black coats are coming.
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Being bullied actually means that you are awesome

I was bullied and alienated as a child, and I’ve always been taught to see it as a tragedy that I should cry about in therapy for a decade.

But I realized recently that I was bullied as a child for being smart, sensitive, and unique. So the fact that I was bullied actually means that I’m amazing and special. And I survived it, so I’m amazing AND tempered like steel. It seems to me that bullying is an attempt to get certain kids to throw the amazing parts of themselves in the trash. But if you love yourself, and you reclaim those parts that are derided and laughed at, while smiling back at the attempts at oppression, you are a superhero.

You could say that we are born amazing home-cooked meals, and we are pressured by society into switching that out to be a medium chicken McNuggets. Be the own special meal that you are. The McNuggets of the world will be jealous if you are a home cooked meal, and they’ll try to get you to conform so they aren’t reminded of what they gave up. But don’t fall for it. You are delicious the way you are, lol. Even with all the dipping sauce in the world, the McNuggets of the world can’t compete if you are what you were born to be. ❤️😊

Some thoughts on the practical implications of New Age philosophy

I wrote out some thoughts on what New Age means. I wonder what you think?

Real New Age philosophy is much more boring than what most people understand of New Age thought. The new age is not necessarily some mythical apocalyptic event where all are liberated. New Age refers to the Age of Aquarius, which is what follows the Age of Pisces. In my interpretation of these ages, the way that we socialized was the main driving factor in how these ages affected average life. 2,000 years ago when the last New Age event occurred, the written word was becoming commonplace leading to such inventions as “sacred books” like the Bible and the Koran. People began to derive their wisdom not necessarily from other people but from abstracted “writers” behind these new works.

When you read text, you don’t necessarily know the gender or the race of the writer. You might be able to discern this information from the word choices or grammar, but compared to in-person communication, communication through text is much more abstract. The myriad and endless variables in an in-person encounter are reduced to an alphabet of 26 characters and a basic set of grammar rules. In-person, you have body language, smells, possible pheromones, and other subconscious forms of information to use. With text, you only have the pattern, which can be faked. So moving from the once primary in-person communication mode of communication, now people started writing letters and books. This is the influence of the opposite sign of Pisces, Virgo, which is the sign of books among other things, with its ruler being the communicative Mercury in the productive earth sign of Virgo.

So, when people moved from in-person to abstracted text, certain variables could no longer be seen, so they slowly disappeared. Jesus was the enlightened book reader type who marveled the Rabbis with his knowledge of the Hebrew scriptures. In this example you can see the Virgo wunderkind wowing the previous age’s representatives, the Pharisees and various Judaical wrongdoers. It is hypothesized that Jesus lived with the Essenes, which were a separatist Jewish cult of sorts that likely had numerous scrolls of the collected wisdom of the Levant. And so we can see how the Pisces attitude manifests through the opposite sign of Virgo.

So, ok, adoption of the written word correlated with the idea of the “universal human” which led to religions of love and tolerance. We can see this in China too where Taoist and Confusion scriptures became codified into the DaoDeJing and the Analects, among other works. Both of these philosophies were universal and largely tolerant. You can take that or leave it I suppose. But I see that now we are adopting a new form of communication, the electronic variety, and this is leading to the same tumult of 2,000 years ago. With the written word, the actual number of writers was still relatively low and mostly made up of the minority of wealthy males. This lead to situations like where the founders of the USA had a vision of a universal “man” who was supposed to be universal but really likely just meant “writers” in my estimation. They had to allow that all writers were equal because those are the rules of written communication. If you can follow the rules and say words in the right order, you have to be taken as an equal. Text was massively democratizing in that respect.

What does this have to do with today Zeronom?! OK, so as we adopt the internet and phones and texting as means of communicating, we gain the ability to communicate with some of the “in-person” attributes that text didn’t have room for. Now we can communicate with a selfie and not a letter saying “I’m fine!” to your parents. This is where Aquarius’s opposite sign of Leo comes in. Leo is the selfie sign, and with video chat, selfies, and cameras in general, the way that one looks becomes a kind of barcode which tells the other person a set of details like beauty, race, and age. Previous to the 20th century, communication by image was extremely rare. Now, one’s image is expected to be a calling card for one’s wellbeing. As we move into fully virtualized communication because of COVID, expect distortions to pop up where Virgo sensibilities are overrun by Leo archetypes. These are the envied and loathed “influencers” of social media, for example.

In the previous age when communication was either in-person or over text, a specific type of person was required, and values that we take for granted like universal human rights, likely were made necessary by the availability of the technology of books and scrolls so that numerous people could learn from a single, replicable device like a book. When you exchange communication with another human by letters or books, you don’t know many things about them whereas if they were in-person you might have more details. Now as we move into the digital communication world, many details of the age previous to Pisces (Aries) will be coming back, but virtualized. Aquarius and Aries get along, but Aquarius wants the primal and sexual immediacy of the Aries Age with a mature amount of safety and regularity.

Most of what New Age means is just The Scientific and Industrial Revolution. Many New Age people are still living in the Pisces age when the world is moving into the Aquarius age. Likely, they were raised to value Piscean values from the age of written communication. But those values are disappearing. But Leo is also psychedelics and art and sexual freedom. Leo is the blues musician or rapper. Leos do so well in this new Aquarian world that they can become president. Trump had Leo rising, and Obama had the Sun in Leo. This Leo energy is not going away. We are in a different universe now with all of these camera based communication techniques. The year 0 has come screaming back. The average Romans who thought the Christians were bizarre likely didn’t read beyond the most basic letters and numerals. They relied on in-person communication, and certain things could not be faked. Now, they can thrive again, albeit virtualized.

Thoughts? I need to go to bed, so I didn’t really proof that. There might be errors. Honestly, so much is not “I” but others talking through me. My main point is that certain qualities cannot be communicated by certain modes of communication and therefore they disappear over time as people switch modes. Also when I say these generalized things, I understand that many people in the Pisces age did not read, but the social structure was formulated by the “Holy Book” whatever it was. What is our holy thing? I would wager that it’s the holy artwork or artist.

Update & Hiatus

Since solstice I’ve become a completely new person, and I am not really interested in writing anything more for a while. My burning desire to seek and find has been extinguished, and now I mostly just want to make music. I’ll probably post some drafts and stuff from my personal journal. But for now, Zeronom is on a hiatus. Please enjoy the poetry, prophetic writ, and dreams within. They have been me and also have assisted me in my finding my soul and heart. I have tried to say here what is said to me within. I am immensely grateful for your eyeballs and heart.


A week ago I had a life changing experience of unity with the infinite & eternal divine, and I have been massively peaceful ever since.

A week ago I had a life changing experience of unity with the infinite & eternal divine, and I have been massively peaceful ever since. Now everything seems so small and pointless outside of love and compassion. How can I spend so much time defending this cosmic blip of a “self” called “zeronom” when it is not real? I’m so tired of the relentless battle to prove how important this unreal thing is to everyone around me. It’s utter madness upon madness. I continue to perceive the eternal field of potential (God, Dao, Brahman), and I don’t feel small at all. There is no fight. I have perceived my eternal spark, and it is the same as the ALL.

English is very dualistic, so this doesn’t make perfect grammatical sense, but because I allowed my mind to perceive the infinite, my concepts exploded, and I feel as though I just cannot crave and desire as I used to. It’s like grasping at air!

I’m not saying that I am some great being of spirituality. I’m actually saying we are all the same, shared greatness in essence. But I am having to throw out so much that doesn’t work anymore right now. I can see how my self-promotion was so domineering. How can we be honest about our weaknesses if we are unable to even own weakness in public because we must be militantly self-promoting and other-rejecting? And I know that a lot of my “spirituality” was self-serving. “Let me help you with my amazing spiritual ability!” Blah blah blah.

There are paths still available to the eternal end of self-transcendence. All paths are unique, but may more people find out how infinite and eternal they truly are. And just like that a searching and seeking for wholeness has vanished, leaving behind peace and simplicity. And part of me just wants to toss the entire part of my personality called “spirituality.” So much of this blog is now meaningless.