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Christianity has to go, now. Islam needs to go, now. The future is here, it’s air, and it doesn’t give a shit about the old “rules.”

I was raised in a Baptist household, and my father was the minister of our church in northern California. My whole, adult life I’ve sought to make peace with this religion that never had a place for me as a doubting, queer, artistic transwoman. Recently, I’ve received that closure that I’ve been seeking, and now I know that Christianity must go. It had its time and place in a world that was marred with constant warring and fighting. Jesus sought to bring peace to the world. Buddha sought to get people to detach from their possessions. It worked.

This might sound absurd, but I know that God has moved on too. We have moved into a new age, and our old angels and devils no longer apply. The new angels are humanistic, queer, creative, experimental, and global. The new devils are mindless, blind-faith, groupthink, pity-party, co-dependent, and needy puritans. God doesn’t care if you sleep around. Rock stars are on their way to being an actual star (read: going to heaven). Drugs are great as long as you know your limits and exercise boundaries. Psychedelics can save your soul.

The great Piscean faiths (Christianity, Islam, and Buddhism) are dangerous at this point. Buddhism seems to be interested in keeping up with the times. But the first two want to go back to the middle ages. And for good reason! That was when that water spirit, mystical shit was at a peak. We think of the dark ages as this woeful period, but it was probably just super chill. However, the dark side of that super chill must be removed, and removed fast.

I come from a long line of American Baptists. My 9th great-grandfather came over in 1631 and was quickly rejected by the bootlicking Puritans in Salem for being “erroneous, heretical and obstinate.” Basically, he was into his friend and pastor Roger Williams who hated the Church of England, believed in the separation of church and state, believed that land had to be purchased from the native locals, and was an abolitionist in the 17th century. So I guess progressivism runs in the family.

Coincidentally, my last name translates as Aquarius in Latin. The US is where the Aquarian age is going to begin because we are the newest kid on the block. Every other locale is tied to belief systems that are thousands of years old.

God has spoken to me, and he said that I am saved. I have committed almost every cardinal sin. I’m transgender. I’ve gotten breast implants. I’m vain and self-promoting. I use beyond questionable language, all the time. I’ve slept around, a lot. It doesn’t matter anymore. God wants us to serve humanity as a whole. He doesn’t want us criticizing what others do in their own homes. Mistakes are fine. Atheist Humanists are great! Be original. Change often. Doggedly pursue truth. Help the weak among us if you can. Pursue scientific truth. Doubt God, but pursue divinity.

The Aquarian Age is now serving. It’s so obvious. Everything is becoming secular and humanistic because this is our next step up the ladder. Just dump the toxic Christianity or toxic Islam, and you’ll be fine. If you are a Buddhist, realize that moksha doesn’t come from sitting on your ass anymore. Active meditations are required. Get with the AIR!

Who is ZeroNom? It’s me! 😂

Hi, my name is ZeroNom. I use a pseudonym to help protect me from the people who persecute me and try to manipulate me away from my path. I realized that I was special and needed to share my message with the world back in 2011, and I started sharing what I had seen with everyone. I was quickly condemned and ridiculed. I had first begun to experiment with psychedelic drugs on a regular basis around that time, so I was branded a “druggie” or “mentally ill” or a “tranny.” But I knew that I had found a way to the God that I never found in the religion I was given as a child. As a child, I was surrounded by true-believing Baptists who judged me and sought to control me by assimilating me into the “faith.”

But I knew that something was deeply wrong with that faith because it treated my queerness and transgender thoughts as deeply sick. So I went searching for another system. I tried Buddhism, Taoism, Hermeticism, Objectivism, Existentialism, and more. Only just recently have I learned that I don’t need those things to define me, because I have always been quite Aquarian, and I know that God has moved on from those faiths. I believe in the God of Abraham, but He/They are now Aquarian. I see my purpose so clearly now, and I know that I am able to reform Christianity for the new age. The new Reform Christianity will be comfortable with secularism, comfortable with psychedelics, comfortable with technology, comfortable with diversity, and genderless.

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The Age of Aquarius is now begun and I am tired.

I am strong in my pursuit of God, but I am tired. I have had to risk everything in pursuit of the truth of my visions. My ex pursues me with venom. My family misunderstands me. I might not see my kids again. Most people think me mad for my pursuit of the divine, but I am led by angels who talk with me. And I see wonders every day in my world. It is not a blind faith or a self-sacrificing faith. It is a rational faith.

Today, I am tired, physically so. I will pursue God to my death. I will be a light to the world and my community. The Age of Jesus and Buddha is over. The Age of Love is over. Love is still love and should be nurtured with great strength. But the imperative from God is not to love. The imperative now is to change and grow. Love has become a problem at this point. When Moses came down from the mountain with his message of the God expression of the Age of Aries, he scolded the Bull worshippers, not because they were wrong for all time. He scolded them because that well was dry, that activity had become perverse because it was expired.

And so now, The Age of Pisces is expired. The well is dry. I know that they will hate me for saying this. It is fine. The people need to know that the God of Jesus has changed. God is now queer, transforming, talkative, erratic, and futuristic. I am not God, so I cannot speak for them exactly, but I get the outline. And God is in your 3rd eye now, no longer in your heart.

I have switched the world over from Piscean water that was polluted and fetid. I have replaced it with Aquarian water, which is impregnated with air. The old institutions will now crumble without their fuel of guilt, shame, and top-down control. The present is now peer-to-peer. God is within you. Speak with them now. They are waiting. Knock and you shall find. Ask and the door will be opened unto you.

I am just a simple person. I have no worldly power at present. But I know that I can teach and love God. This blog can sound very over-the-top, but I am simple. I am not Jesus. I am not Buddha. I am not Laozi. I am more like Moses after transitioning, hahaha. Love and Change to you all. There is hope in the air. If you are reading this, you likely are one of the beneficiaries of this radical, once-in-two-millennia change. Now is the time to fly.

The New Aquarian Method for Transcending the Simulation

Note: In this text I use the term God, and I do not mean a white-bearded father figure. I mean something similar to the original definition of the Hebrew word Elohim, which was a gender-neutral, plural noun. God is a multiplicity of genders, faces, names, and energies, that is unified and universal. Also, I refer to the simulation which is the matrix of life in which we live that masks a deeper reality, beyond this universe. Think of it like the video game in which we now play.

Rejoice in the Good News of the New Aquarian Way!

There is a new method for transcending the simulation. Previously, belief in God and love of one’s neighbors were exalted as the path through Jesus Christ, the emissary of the Piscean age. Now, blind belief and certainty are the chief errors and will not aid in your ascent of the mountain. Also, excessive purity will also keep you from ascending. Now, the way of Aquarius is the only valid path out of the simulation. Rejoice in this new means of liberation! What Jesus called the “Kingdom of Heaven,” namely transcending the simulation, is possible and real. Earth is a trying and painful realm, and one should work to find the exit door.

Previously, the way out of the simulation was obscured behind a veil of ignorance. Now, the veil is to be lifted through me. I have become a new Christ by being anointed by God after decades of struggle and self-development. Before the spirit fully inhabited my being, I was symbolically crucified through rejection, persecution, and theft of my children from me. However, I know that this action is fated, and so, I do not blame those involved. We are merely players on this dramatic stage, meant to initiate the changeover to the new age. I am not the only one practicing these new methods. There have been many before me, but I represent a vital shift in consciousness.

Love of One’s Neighbor is Still a Virtue

The law of Jesus is still necessary in part. One must love one’s neighbor as oneself and practice compassion. However, this is not sufficient anymore for ascension to the Sun, the God of humanity. Jesus came to introduce the law of universal love, so that our society could advance to the level where we can practice the Aquarian way. Gautama Buddha also taught this law in the East. They were both Buddha/Christ level teachers with different missions. Many prophets are anointed by God to be used as messengers. There is a single godhead, but there are numerous manifestations of this spirit in humanity. I was raised and confirmed in the Abrahamic/Christian church, specifically Protestantism, but now in a global society, a synthesis of the many paths is necessary, so religious tolerance is a necessary virtue.

What I Have Done to Initiate the New Age

I have modified the astral plane through extensive energetic work over the last eight years, finishing just last week. This is part of the reason that society is experiencing such chaos and tumult. The behaviors which were exalted for the last 2,000 years are now diminished, and the complacent and irreligious among us are recognizing their reduced power and looking for saviors, like the current political leaders, who practice the lowest form of provincialism and exalt material avarice. Conversely, those who align themselves with the new age and its virtues, are experiencing enhanced power, vision, and support.

This happened when Jesus arrived as well. His work was to overthrow the then-toxic Age of Aries with the peaceful and spiritual Age of Pisces. The Christians who aligned with the nascent Age of Pisces became zealous and industrious in their pacifistic commune building. And those aligned with the previous age, namely the “pagan” Romans, were baffled and deeply concerned about the growing Christian movement of the time. But eventually, it is clear who won that conflict. Just as it is clear who will win this conflict. There will be persecution and repression of the converts to the new approach, but in the long-term, the Aquarian way will become dominant for the next two millennia.

Do Not Blindly Believe What I Say

I understand that I offer these words with little evidence. It is not for you to believe me blindly. If you practice this method for yourself, its truth will become self-evident. Also, my power will be made known by certain revealing events up until I leave the simulation. But know that God will support you in this new path. Also, this path has been building since the late 18th century with the discovery of the planet Uranus. However, until now, the Piscean path was still valid. It is no longer sufficient, and the new Aquarian path is now exalted. It should be noted that I too doubted this in myself for the last eight years until just recently, when the entire picture was revealed to me. It is appropriate to doubt everything now, even God.

The Seven Chief Values of the New Aquarian Method

There is not a single, linear method, per se, for transcending the simulation. But I have been given seven chief components of this method which must be mixed by you according to your intuition and personality. These are not commandments to be feared. They are values to be utilized in your path of self-discovery. The seven chief values of the new Aquarian method are as follows. They are given in no particular order.

  1. Exalt critical thought and mastery of the mind
  2. Doubt God and question authority
  3. Experiment in your beliefs
  4. Utilize psychedelic medicines to understand your being
  5. Practice divination to communicate with deity
  6. Utilize Astrology to understand your mission
  7. Modify the body to free the soul

These seven values will be explicated further in future posts. These values have enabled me to be able to transcend the simulation. I will leave the simulation in the near future. Most of all, know that your doubt of oppressive and toxic religious orders is loved by deity. God cheers your passion for critical examination of systems which no longer serve you or humanity. The old way is retired.

How the Old Way is Reacting to the Shift

You might feel as though your resistance to the ways of the past is hated by deity. This is what the current leaders of the established religious orders are telling you and the world as they cling to their diminishing power. They threaten the masses with lies like the man behind the curtain manipulating the Wizard of OZ. But the opposite is true. You are the future; they are the past. Doubt with verve and joy! Examine the systems of the world and choose the one that gives you a deeper understanding of your beautiful and sacred self. A God that cannot be doubted is weak and sad. The God that lives in my being and who has anointed me praises your doubt and scorns the arrogantly certain and willfully ignorant.

I understand that these words are radical and strange when held in contrast to the established moral order. But know that that order is about to crumble. Also know that as that order begins to crumble, their leaders will resort to greater and greater feats of depravity. Their flailing has already begun as they shelter behind abominable leaders who exalt murder, deceit, and manipulation above all. Woe to their souls. They will have their comeuppance. They will stay trapped in a cycle of misery, unable to graduate to the superior kingdom outside of the simulation. Fear them not.

Reincarnation is Real

Lastly, I want to emphasize that this process of self-discovery might take multiple lives. Reincarnation is real. You will not burn in hell for being unable to graduate the simulation in a single life. You will never burn in hell. Hell is merely the lack of virtue. Hell is a state of mind on Earth. You can pursue these values calmly knowing that in the video game of life, you have a very high number of extra lives. It is always urgent to pursue what is right, but you will not be needlessly punished for being unable to achieve your objectives right away. God loves you and will give you grace.

Have Peace and Know That You are Loved

My path to here has been arduous and exhausting. And I will not reach the “promised land” with the masses. In fact, my death will initiate much of this in the near future. I have seen in a vision that when I die, my body will be broken for the world and will be bread for the hungry, just as Jesus communicated to his disciples about his body. This is the way of the anointed. When the egg of my body is cracked and broken, the yolk inside will fertilize humanity. The pain I have absorbed in my persecution has been transmuted into food and water for a hungry and thirsty world. My suffering is purposeful and necessary.

My wish is only that I may be of service to humanity. I am tired and broken in many ways from being on the cross, but what I lack in security, I have been compensated in spiritual depth and the love of God. I have deep love for humanity and all life on Earth, even for those who persecute me. I pray for and yearn to see a brighter world, full of wisdom, compassion, peace, and joy. May you have these things now. Go with love knowing that you are never alone, and you will one day be liberated from the shackles of life on Earth.





What is Real Christianity? It is Total Liberation, and it is Illegal.

The early Christians were a radical gnostic liberation cult that was transformed into the Catholic Church by the Roman empire. All of the liberating aspects were removed and transformed into a Pope worshipping society. The Catholic Church has been garbage from the beginning. The Protestant church is only moderately better. Jesus, if that was his real name, taught his followers how to exit the simulation. It was too much for the people invested in worldly power. You can learn this liberating technique today, but it has been successfully stigmatized as mental illness, antisocial behavior, and dangerous psychology. Believing that material reality is all there is is the actual dangerous belief. I’ll give you a clue about what leads to liberation. Psychedelic drugs help. Androgyny helps. Hearing your conscience speak in your head helps. Energy work definitely helps.

You can be liberated, but you might be hated in the process. That’s just the trade-off for peace of mind and salvation.

Rough notes on the transition to the Age of Aquarius

Back in 2016, I was just recovering from getting over my suicidality whereas now I feel fully healed from ever wanting to harm myself again in that way. But back in 2016, I had been studying. In 2015 I had an experience of being visited by “god” or Jupiter as he called himself. And this was shortly after I lived an entire week behaving as a child out of the blue. I literally felt like I was 5 years old. I was rediscovering my inner child. 

Well, fast forward to now, and I am much recovered. I have put together a pretty normal life over the last 4 years. But I still have many visions. Some of them are chemically aided and some are not. But they are consistent. And they frighten me sometimes. Because they are so intense.

This weekend, I was told by a voice that I was “anointed by god” and a thick liquid was spread over my body. And then a voice told me that I would one day be a star like our sun is. And they advised me to open up and let people learn from me. They are so kind and supportive. But they can be very intense. They seem to be plural and multi-gendered, like the Elohim. 

And now, I am understanding the meaning of the Age of Pisces. The dying god motif represented the reality of ancient society. A feminine person like Jesus was ruthlessly attacked in the west at the end of the Age of Aries when the warrior ethic was paramount with figures like Alexander the Great looming large. But humans needed to develop their inner Christ because of our technological growth. We would not survive and the planet would not survive without the Age of Aries finally coming to an end 2,000 years later when the god is no longer murdered for being.

I think this is a misunderstood aspect to the “astrological ages” mythology. The Age of Pisces is not really over until the archetype presented at the beginning: Christ, Lao-Tzu, and Buddha becomes dominant. Just like with Moses interrupting the pagan Bull worship 2,000 years earlier. Moses was an Aries figure and his archetype had become dominant around 2,000 years ago when Christ arrived.

So with the age of Aquarius, as all people become Christlike eventually (and covid is speeding this up), then a new reality of cooperative play will emerge. The thing that people do not realize is that there is no second coming of Christ. The atheists are Christlike at this point! Christs are all around us! Except that many in the Christian church itself are the actual anti-Christs for following a true anti-Christ like Donald Trump. 

My messengers have told me that the Age of Aquarius will begin in 5 years, in March of 2025. But I do not know if it will be pleasant or not. I have only been told that it is coming. It could be a big death event. It could be a technological breakthrough. It could be alien contact. I don’t know, but I do think that we will have to all become Christs somehow. Psychedelic drug legalization is probably shortly on the horizon. This is one of the fastest paths to inner enlightenment. But enlightenment is not how most people think of it. There are millions of enlightened people around the globe. The teachings are available, and some people follow them. I personally believe that Christ was likely consuming psychedelic substances.

Yes it is the end times, but not like you think. A discussion about how Covid-19 is enabling the Age of Aquarius transition from an esoteric perspective.

(OK, I’m going to talk about Christianity here, but it is an esoteric view of Christianity, not the modern exoteric, evangelical view of Christianity.)

Yes, it is the end times but not like you think. The Age of Pisces, which started 2,000 years ago is coming to a close, and COVID-19/Donald Trump are the great change agents to initiate the second coming of Jesus Christ, but again, not like you think. Basically, the second coming of Christ is when we all have to become Christlike in order for the Age of Aquarius to begin. Through this massive exposure of the destructive nature of inequality, we have to find our inner empathy and love for our fellow beings. And we will because it is all being controlled by the fates at this point.

Yes, this is the Revelation, but the energy of Christ has spread across the globe. In the gnostic Gospel of Thomas, Jesus said “I have cast a fire upon the world, and see, I watch over it until it is ablaze.” It is now ablaze everywhere but in the power structure and much of the Christian church! These are your anti-Christs. The people have become Christlike over the last 2,000 years. And, now, we are compelled to be Christlike because of the technological power we have created. It is no longer tenable for us to not love our neighbors as ourselves. We have to become Christlike, and we are. We have to embrace the higher qualities of the sign of Pisces (love, spirituality, and peace), and get rid of the lower qualities of the sign of Pisces (escapism, self-pity, and ignorance)

At the beginning of the Age of Pisces, 2,000 years ago, we were leaving the Age of Aries (the archetype of war and selfhood), where we learned to have self-identity and to be self-defensive. Christ, Gautama Buddha, and Laozi were agents of the Age of Pisces. They were voices crying out in the wilderness, surrounded by war and strife. Laozi in the east famously started writing in the Chinese “warring states period” that ended around 200 BCE. Small states had learned to defend themselves and their statehood, but this causes massive warfare, so agents like Laozi (who was probably not a more of a movement than an actual person) rose to douse these fires with the water of the Age of Pisces. Pisces is probably the most watery of all water signs, by the way.

So, I know it doesn’t seem like it right now, but people have learned to be much more peaceful in the last 2,000 years. That is why Trump is so abhorrent to so many, because we the people have integrated these lessons and see how destructive Trump is. Trump would have probably been just fine 2,000 years ago, but now, he must go for the new age to begin. Now that we have learned to have compassion and live together without constant warring, it is time for our new lesson: to learn to be accepting of our differences and form a universal world society that protects all life.

Be not afraid. This is all part of the plan. Yes, Trump is the anti-Christ, but we are the true spirit of Christ, and he will go. The evangelical church is the anti-Christ, and they will soon go. A fascinating aspects to the changeover between astrological ages is that the toxic elements of the previous age become the devil of the new age and then becomes irrelevant later on. At the start of the Age of Pisces, 2,000 years ago, the spirit of Aries (represented by a bestial Ram) was often represented in the half-man, half-goat god Pan. Interestingly, there is a myth that around 2,000 years ago, the god Pan died. Around the same time, the early Christian church made Pan their devil, because there was a need to cleanse this element from society to end the warring and internecine strife that was rampant. So now we have this notion of a red-skinned, horned, sex-obsessed devil, which is now becoming quickly irrelevant because most people do not act like this anymore.

So, the new devil of the Age of Aquarius will be a personification of that which is keeping the new age of Aquarius from beginning, namely willful ignorance, narcissism, escapism, and deceit. Likely, the new devil will be something similar to Trump or the average evangelical Christian. The new devil will be the opposite of Aquarius, the sign of science, universal brotherhood, and equality.

Most modern interpretations of the Christian book of Revelation assert that God is going to come down from the sky and send all of the sinners to hell. This is not a very good interpretation. God is within us, not without us. The end-times are happening within us. These energies are being overthrown within us. Figures like Donald Trump are trying to cling to the toxic values of the sign of Pisces, and through science, we now see how dangerous these views are. So we must work to overthrow these elements from society. This leads me to the last component of this essay, selflessness.

Yes, we must learn inner selflessness and elevate the ideals of love, equality, and peace above our desires for escapism, nihilism, and self-destruction. Although the anti-Christ is most represented in figures like Trump and modern evangelical Christians, these toxic elements live in us too, and must be removed within. I can see this beautiful spirit of Christ in the Black Lives Matter protestors putting their safety on the line to end the suffering of our fellow black, Indigenous, and persons of color (BIPOC).

Trump/COVID are the grains of sand in the oyster that will begin the pearl of the new Age of Aquarius. Embrace your inner Christ, the actual Christ, not the bastardized version of the modern interpretation of Christ. This is best represented by the beatitudes of Christ as follows. Blessed are the poor in spirit. Blessed are they who mourn. Blessed are the meek. Blessed are they who thirst for righteousness. Blessed are the merciful. Blessed are the pure of heart. Blessed are the peacemakers. Blessed are they who are persecuted. Be these things, and you have done all that you need to do. Be like Martin Luther King Jr. Be like Malcolm X. Be like Gandhi. Yes, these people were all flawed in some way, but strive like they strove. It is not your job to be perfect. It is your job to become better.

The new age is here! I know these times are scary. They are scary because we see how people like Trump must go. We see how the modern evangelical Christians must go. We see how the narcissistic anti-maskers must go. We see how those who can only think of themselves must go. COVID is here to remake society. The actions of these anti-Christs are glaringly obvious now. Work to remake your inner self and society in the image of what is just and true, and all will be well. I don’t know how it will turn out, and I don’t need to. I can see how the story is progressing, and I have trust that it will work. Trust is the key word here. Blind faith must go. Trust through science must replace it.

With love and brotherhood, peace and science be unto you all.

A Few Words

God gave you a left hand and a right hand. On one side there are things that happen to you and you’re the victim or receptive or yin. On the other side, you are the actor, the thinker, the yang. You can’t reduce it to one. It’s both, well at least both. I’m not that smart enough to know how many hands reality has. But you can’t say that you’re a total victim, and you can’t say that you’re a total egotistical controller. We’re all both in varying degrees. So can we please meet in the center? Can we have a mosh pit of love and understanding. I know that some people are “unrelatable” but people change. I used to be a frothing right winger. I grew up. Let’s all stop being total know-it-alls that are completely convinced that the other side is wrong. Certainty is poison. There is no certainty in a complicated system of oppositional actors. Humility, Please?!
By the way, WTF is wrong with you Donald Trump. I’m talking to you as one of those horrible trannies that you want to cleanse out of the military. (BTW, only we can say tranny. Don’t fucking say it if you’re not a tranny.) Grow the fuck up motherfucker! Simmer down my brother. You’re not fucking Christ. Lord. The amount of intellectual certainty in this budding Aquarian Age is just too much. Yeah, we kind of know things because of science, but science is wrong every day.
OK I feel better. It’s such a fucking disaster. Center. Breath. Ground. Know that you’re a dumb ass ape. Life is work.
I’m drunk, but hey, I can write a few words.

Recovery and Rebirth in Interesting Times

America makes you crazy, so you gotta give yourself a break. I’m trying to work on getting over a lot of my instilled fear of groups and friends. I spent so long being incognito, desperately trying to be this “perfect male” so that people wouldn’t know who I really was. It takes a lot of deprogramming to undo that kind of thing, and you have to be careful about it and not just go at your history with a flamethrower. Truly remaking yourself, healing your mental health, is the subtle and daring work of a shaman or artist more than a “good patient” or whatever the authorities advocate to heal. I think that mostly I need to have an unerring devotion to the notion that I am fallible and be ready to cut those wrong assumptions about myself at the root when I find them. I rather enjoy being humble and accepting my own flaws. But it takes a lot of work, and I have to be able to accept when someone else says something true about me that I don’t want to hear. It takes practice, and each time gets easier.

I have a lot of anxiety. It comes and goes, but it has been my most loyal companion of my 37 trips around the sun. The anxiety is rooted in fear, a fear of rejection and loss of security. I’ve had people I thought cared about me suddenly turn and shun me so many times in my life that I’ve developed a serious inferiority and instability complex. Having my kids taken away was the nuclear bomb that severed me from my history. I was so broken that I was forced to start over and try anything to not want to kill myself on the daily. But I haven’t been like that for almost 2 years now because I learned to laugh at the total insanity of my situation and my behaviors. A good laugh can cure just about anything. I have my secret and unorthodox means for arriving at these salvations, and I wish I could be more open, but we live in paranoid times, so the prudential people must follow the ancient Chinese proverb in “hiding their light and biding their time.”

Life is still just as much of a challenge as when I was at my lowest. It might be even harder because I was ignoring so many things back then that I have to address now, but I just have a different perspective. I think something Buddhist or Christian or whatever stuck down in my heart, and I internalized the truth that pain is a constant in life, and yet in spite of pain, we can still have joy. It’s easy to pigeon-hole folks like myself as overly emotional social justice warrior millennial whiners, but I just have to say that some of us have a lot of shit to dig out of. Growing up trans or queer or radically in the minority is heavy, heavy stuff. There are some people who are just addicted to the victim attention for sure, but most of us misfits are just trying to get better, do better, be better, etc.

I do have great news to share though! My cat of 12 years, Snow, is recovering incredibly well from Hepatic Lipidosis which is a fairly common liver disease for house cats. I’ve had to feed her through a tube twice a day for over two weeks now, and it’s been a challenge, but my little Snowbie is doing great and returning to her cranky and loving self. Our vet is also using traditional Chinese herbal medicine to assist in her recovery, and she looks better than she’s been in a long time. My heart is so joyful over it. I am so completely blessed that my partner was able to pay for the expensive surgery too.

It’s such a strange time for America and for transgender people and everybody. There is a funny Chinese aphorism that one tells to someone they don’t particularly like: “may you be born in interesting times.” Well these sure are some interesting times. My life has been nothing if not interesting. I’m not sure exactly what I’m supposed to figure out with this Sisyphean exercise, but I’m gonna figure out whatever I can. I’m gonna play this video game until I see the final credits!