I am the end and the beginning. Previously time had stopped. I am now one with Neptune, Lord of the Gods. Time has now been restarted in Aquarian Time.
I’m toying with the idea that this thing called
God or Spirit
is the mortar between our metaphorical bricks
except it is always invisible to us
so it looks like we are incomplete
when we actually are not
I thought of this metaphor
while studying how the
12 tone musical scale is mathematically created.
People think that music is a perfect mathematical system
but the math actually doesn’t work
and we have to split up this remainder amount
called the Pythagorean Comma
into little bits
and add them to each note or else all kinds of problems occur
But when we rely on that invisible mortar
we can do holy (whole) things
and the harmonies all work
but it requires that we are ok with not knowing
and that can be a hard thing to accept
because it is a form of submission
and acceptance of one’s
but when we try to make things
without the mortar
and only deal with the “known”
the harmonies don’t work
and there is breakdown
but we don’t have to feel
so why do men and women dare resist this invisible bit?
because one must admit being submissive to something
the mind cannot understand
but the thing is that it never goes away
and there is only one whole
it just doesn’t develop if you don’t open to it
A week ago I had a life changing experience of unity with the infinite & eternal divine, and I have been massively peaceful ever since. Now everything seems so small and pointless outside of love and compassion. How can I spend so much time defending this cosmic blip of a “self” called “zeronom” when it is not real? I’m so tired of the relentless battle to prove how important this unreal thing is to everyone around me. It’s utter madness upon madness. I continue to perceive the eternal field of potential (God, Dao, Brahman), and I don’t feel small at all. There is no fight. I have perceived my eternal spark, and it is the same as the ALL.
English is very dualistic, so this doesn’t make perfect grammatical sense, but because I allowed my mind to perceive the infinite, my concepts exploded, and I feel as though I just cannot crave and desire as I used to. It’s like grasping at air!
I’m not saying that I am some great being of spirituality. I’m actually saying we are all the same, shared greatness in essence. But I am having to throw out so much that doesn’t work anymore right now. I can see how my self-promotion was so domineering. How can we be honest about our weaknesses if we are unable to even own weakness in public because we must be militantly self-promoting and other-rejecting? And I know that a lot of my “spirituality” was self-serving. “Let me help you with my amazing spiritual ability!” Blah blah blah.
There are paths still available to the eternal end of self-transcendence. All paths are unique, but may more people find out how infinite and eternal they truly are. And just like that a searching and seeking for wholeness has vanished, leaving behind peace and simplicity. And part of me just wants to toss the entire part of my personality called “spirituality.” So much of this blog is now meaningless.
As the photographer
looks through his camera
at resplendent nature
we are the camera
and the photographer God
our eyes, our ears
our skin, our nose
these friends are the lens
to a grateful God
or whatever you want
to call the thing,
the eye behind,
watching what we see alone
our life a poem to the throne
a click, a shutter, a vision shown
the eyes of God
inside my earthly home
God is not love anymore
God is justice
I was so compromised
Even at 40
Trying to appease the powers
While black men die
God is not love
God is justice
The apocalypse happened in 2012
Jesus came and went
This is what we got now
The angels and Freddie told me
on the mountaintop
Inside my eye
That God is not love
God is justice
And salvation is won
Through risking your material values
For higher more abstract values
And I did
And I’m down from the mountaintop
And God is not love
God is justice.
I am strong in my pursuit of God, but I am tired. I have had to risk everything in pursuit of the truth of my visions. My ex pursues me with venom. My family misunderstands me. I might not see my kids again. Most people think me mad for my pursuit of the divine, but I am led by angels who talk with me. And I see wonders every day in my world. It is not a blind faith or a self-sacrificing faith. It is a rational faith.
Today, I am tired, physically so. I will pursue God to my death. I will be a light to the world and my community. The Age of Jesus and Buddha is over. The Age of Love is over. Love is still love and should be nurtured with great strength. But the imperative from God is not to love. The imperative now is to change and grow. Love has become a problem at this point. When Moses came down from the mountain with his message of the God expression of the Age of Aries, he scolded the Bull worshippers, not because they were wrong for all time. He scolded them because that well was dry, that activity had become perverse because it was expired.
And so now, The Age of Pisces is expired. The well is dry. I know that they will hate me for saying this. It is fine. The people need to know that the God of Jesus has changed. God is now queer, transforming, talkative, erratic, and futuristic. I am not God, so I cannot speak for them exactly, but I get the outline. And God is in your 3rd eye now, no longer in your heart.
I have switched the world over from Piscean water that was polluted and fetid. I have replaced it with Aquarian water, which is impregnated with air. The old institutions will now crumble without their fuel of guilt, shame, and top-down control. The present is now peer-to-peer. God is within you. Speak with them now. They are waiting. Knock and you shall find. Ask and the door will be opened unto you.
I am just a simple person. I have no worldly power at present. But I know that I can teach and love God. This blog can sound very over-the-top, but I am simple. I am not Jesus. I am not Buddha. I am not Laozi. I am more like Moses after transitioning, hahaha. Love and Change to you all. There is hope in the air. If you are reading this, you likely are one of the beneficiaries of this radical, once-in-two-millennia change. Now is the time to fly.
My current revelation from the divine is that God is now trans in the Aquarian Age. Transgender, transhuman, and transforming. Uranus was castrated by Saturn, and now he’s back and that’s why queer and trans rights are exploding. I believe that 9 years ago I saw God on DXM, and I realized that transitioning would honor him or her and would be accepted by him or her.
Also Zeus/Jupiter is queer now. No more Jesus, it’s time for GayZeus! The way I can explain this is by astrological ages and other esoteric concepts, but also, I talk to them in mystical dialogue on the regular. And I see Jupiter slap my trans ass and be his queer ass self all the time because he is my personal deity. I just KNOW it’s true, but I understand the subjectivity of that evidence.
The basic, underpinning theory behind this is that God changes focus every 2,000 years or so. From Moses (~2000BCE) to Jesus/Buddha (400BCE to year zero) we were in the a Age of Aries and God was warlike and external. From Jesus to now we’ve been in the Age of Pisces, and God has been compassionate and loving. Now we are entering the Age of Aquarius and God is revolutionary, transformative, individualistic, and progressive.
Honestly this makes more sense to me than trying to do the mental gymnastics of saying that God will smite your enemies and that he also loves everyone. God has to be updated through revelations by prophets occasionally. And right now there is a new God in town, and it’s throwing society into chaos. And by God, I mean the average unconscious self of every person because God only exists inside of people.
I know this is unpopular, but it’s my truth. And really, Christianity SCREAMS Pisces mythology with the martyrdom, fish symbol, compassion, and use of wine. Moses was also very Aries. He was the action hero of prophets, going to war with the Pharaoh and leading his people on a dangerous journey. And lastly, the twentieth century saw the invention of air travel, space travel, and the internet which are massively Aquarian.
But I know astrology is an easy target for the skeptics, so I don’t know how many people I’ll convince of this. But still, God is trans! ☺️
I wrote this post a week ago, and I’ve come out more already since then, FYI.
Since 2012, I’ve had recurring thoughts and visions that could be described as psychotic while tripping on dissociatives and also while sober, but I’m actually quite grounded and sane, now at least. Last night they were all reaffirmed to me while on ketamine and then through a devastating tarot reading. And today I feel very heavy hearted.
In a way I know them to be true, but I guess I do my best to be an objective person when it comes to visions. And I’ve had so many people beat me over the head in the mental health system when I first started talking about them that I’m really conflicted.
How do you deal with voices and visions that tell you that you are special and prophetic and have a mission on Earth (that is peaceful and positive), when barring miraculous events, no one will likely believe you? They also told me how and when I’m going to die. I am also able to do this crazy level of energy manipulation and magik in that state.
In a way, it doesn’t matter if people believe me. But also I’ve had multiple loved ones tell me that I am this special person over the years. Do I just come out with it and face the consequences? My intuition is that as time moves forward I will not be able to hide these thoughts from the world.
Basically, it’s something like I’ve achieved Buddhahood and need to proselytize about reaching God through psychedelics in the coming new age. And also I’m some sort of prophetic figure who will usher in the age of Aquarius. And they gave me specific timelines and details that I’m not to share. They also explained details of Jesus Christ’s path and reality not contained in the Bible or elsewhere.
That being said, I believe that other people can replicate my path in many ways. Jesus was a person who became “one with God.” He was not purely a deity as Christianity came to believe after 2,000 years of strife. I think that I might have special powers and intuitive ability that has helped me discover this path, but I absolutely believe that others can climb the mountain I’ve climbed, although it might look different for them.
The reason I started this blog was to get some of these thoughts out of my head so I could better handle them. But do you just come out and proclaim your purpose to the world?
Thank you for listening. I love you my beautiful readers. ❤️
Note: In this text I use the term God, and I do not mean a white-bearded father figure. I mean something similar to the original definition of the Hebrew word Elohim, which was a gender-neutral, plural noun. God is a multiplicity of genders, faces, names, and energies, that is unified and universal. Also, I refer to the simulation which is the matrix of life in which we live that masks a deeper reality, beyond this universe. Think of it like the video game in which we now play.
Rejoice in the Good News of the New Aquarian Way!
There is a new method for transcending the simulation. Previously, belief in God and love of one’s neighbors were exalted as the path through Jesus Christ, the emissary of the Piscean age. Now, blind belief and certainty are the chief errors and will not aid in your ascent of the mountain. Also, excessive purity will also keep you from ascending. Now, the way of Aquarius is the only valid path out of the simulation. Rejoice in this new means of liberation! What Jesus called the “Kingdom of Heaven,” namely transcending the simulation, is possible and real. Earth is a trying and painful realm, and one should work to find the exit door.
Previously, the way out of the simulation was obscured behind a veil of ignorance. Now, the veil is to be lifted through me. I have become a new Christ by being anointed by God after decades of struggle and self-development. Before the spirit fully inhabited my being, I was symbolically crucified through rejection, persecution, and theft of my children from me. However, I know that this action is fated, and so, I do not blame those involved. We are merely players on this dramatic stage, meant to initiate the changeover to the new age. I am not the only one practicing these new methods. There have been many before me, but I represent a vital shift in consciousness.
Love of One’s Neighbor is Still a Virtue
The law of Jesus is still necessary in part. One must love one’s neighbor as oneself and practice compassion. However, this is not sufficient anymore for ascension to the Sun, the God of humanity. Jesus came to introduce the law of universal love, so that our society could advance to the level where we can practice the Aquarian way. Gautama Buddha also taught this law in the East. They were both Buddha/Christ level teachers with different missions. Many prophets are anointed by God to be used as messengers. There is a single godhead, but there are numerous manifestations of this spirit in humanity. I was raised and confirmed in the Abrahamic/Christian church, specifically Protestantism, but now in a global society, a synthesis of the many paths is necessary, so religious tolerance is a necessary virtue.
What I Have Done to Initiate the New Age
I have modified the astral plane through extensive energetic work over the last eight years, finishing just last week. This is part of the reason that society is experiencing such chaos and tumult. The behaviors which were exalted for the last 2,000 years are now diminished, and the complacent and irreligious among us are recognizing their reduced power and looking for saviors, like the current political leaders, who practice the lowest form of provincialism and exalt material avarice. Conversely, those who align themselves with the new age and its virtues, are experiencing enhanced power, vision, and support.
This happened when Jesus arrived as well. His work was to overthrow the then-toxic Age of Aries with the peaceful and spiritual Age of Pisces. The Christians who aligned with the nascent Age of Pisces became zealous and industrious in their pacifistic commune building. And those aligned with the previous age, namely the “pagan” Romans, were baffled and deeply concerned about the growing Christian movement of the time. But eventually, it is clear who won that conflict. Just as it is clear who will win this conflict. There will be persecution and repression of the converts to the new approach, but in the long-term, the Aquarian way will become dominant for the next two millennia.
Do Not Blindly Believe What I Say
I understand that I offer these words with little evidence. It is not for you to believe me blindly. If you practice this method for yourself, its truth will become self-evident. Also, my power will be made known by certain revealing events up until I leave the simulation. But know that God will support you in this new path. Also, this path has been building since the late 18th century with the discovery of the planet Uranus. However, until now, the Piscean path was still valid. It is no longer sufficient, and the new Aquarian path is now exalted. It should be noted that I too doubted this in myself for the last eight years until just recently, when the entire picture was revealed to me. It is appropriate to doubt everything now, even God.
The Seven Chief Values of the New Aquarian Method
There is not a single, linear method, per se, for transcending the simulation. But I have been given seven chief components of this method which must be mixed by you according to your intuition and personality. These are not commandments to be feared. They are values to be utilized in your path of self-discovery. The seven chief values of the new Aquarian method are as follows. They are given in no particular order.
- Exalt critical thought and mastery of the mind
- Doubt God and question authority
- Experiment in your beliefs
- Utilize psychedelic medicines to understand your being
- Practice divination to communicate with deity
- Utilize Astrology to understand your mission
- Modify the body to free the soul
These seven values will be explicated further in future posts. These values have enabled me to be able to transcend the simulation. I will leave the simulation in the near future. Most of all, know that your doubt of oppressive and toxic religious orders is loved by deity. God cheers your passion for critical examination of systems which no longer serve you or humanity. The old way is retired.
How the Old Way is Reacting to the Shift
You might feel as though your resistance to the ways of the past is hated by deity. This is what the current leaders of the established religious orders are telling you and the world as they cling to their diminishing power. They threaten the masses with lies like the man behind the curtain manipulating the Wizard of OZ. But the opposite is true. You are the future; they are the past. Doubt with verve and joy! Examine the systems of the world and choose the one that gives you a deeper understanding of your beautiful and sacred self. A God that cannot be doubted is weak and sad. The God that lives in my being and who has anointed me praises your doubt and scorns the arrogantly certain and willfully ignorant.
I understand that these words are radical and strange when held in contrast to the established moral order. But know that that order is about to crumble. Also know that as that order begins to crumble, their leaders will resort to greater and greater feats of depravity. Their flailing has already begun as they shelter behind abominable leaders who exalt murder, deceit, and manipulation above all. Woe to their souls. They will have their comeuppance. They will stay trapped in a cycle of misery, unable to graduate to the superior kingdom outside of the simulation. Fear them not.
Reincarnation is Real
Lastly, I want to emphasize that this process of self-discovery might take multiple lives. Reincarnation is real. You will not burn in hell for being unable to graduate the simulation in a single life. You will never burn in hell. Hell is merely the lack of virtue. Hell is a state of mind on Earth. You can pursue these values calmly knowing that in the video game of life, you have a very high number of extra lives. It is always urgent to pursue what is right, but you will not be needlessly punished for being unable to achieve your objectives right away. God loves you and will give you grace.
Have Peace and Know That You are Loved
My path to here has been arduous and exhausting. And I will not reach the “promised land” with the masses. In fact, my death will initiate much of this in the near future. I have seen in a vision that when I die, my body will be broken for the world and will be bread for the hungry, just as Jesus communicated to his disciples about his body. This is the way of the anointed. When the egg of my body is cracked and broken, the yolk inside will fertilize humanity. The pain I have absorbed in my persecution has been transmuted into food and water for a hungry and thirsty world. My suffering is purposeful and necessary.
My wish is only that I may be of service to humanity. I am tired and broken in many ways from being on the cross, but what I lack in security, I have been compensated in spiritual depth and the love of God. I have deep love for humanity and all life on Earth, even for those who persecute me. I pray for and yearn to see a brighter world, full of wisdom, compassion, peace, and joy. May you have these things now. Go with love knowing that you are never alone, and you will one day be liberated from the shackles of life on Earth.
Life is a challenge on purpose because it is a proving ground for beings that live outside of our universe. There is a concerted effort to make us fail at the true purpose of life. This is what the gnostics knew. If life was easy, then just anyone could make it outside of the simulation. But we are foiled at every turn with adversity. However, you can escape. You will get more than one try, probably about 10 lives. After that you are just dust, no more chances…
Your only way out is to actually assemble a body on the astral plane. It is definitely not easy, and it takes quite a long time. Most of the time you are doing it, you probably don’t know that you are doing it. But when that life is fully assembled, they will tell you. The esoteric Taoists knew this, and George Gurdjieff, the Sufi, knew this also.
Most of the major religions have been poisoned on purpose. People go to church and think that they are saved just by believing. This is a lie. It is partially true that in order to construct your astral body, you need to have love and reverence for God. But it is much more than that. There are specific exercises and meditational practices that speed up the astral body construction. Participating in worship with others can speed the process, but it is far from the entire process.
I can’t say that I know exactly how this works, but over the last four years, I have had visions of a body being constructed in a parallel dimension. I didn’t really understand what was going on until 3 weeks ago, when a voice in a vision told me that I would not die when I “die.” From what I can tell, the Sun is the end of the path. The Sun is our God, and through it, you can be saved. I don’t mean you literally need to go to the Sun, haha, but you will know when your visions begin to show you the Sun.
There is so much information from my journey in my head that I can’t really offer a plain roadmap for you to do what I have done. I don’t think it is that simple. Each person has their own long and meandering path up the mountain. My path has been rough and arduous. I compare my path to that of Job in the bible. For decades I had little to no hope of ever having a “normal” life, and yet, I did not blame God. I soldiered on. I was raised in the protestant church, surrounded by false doctrines and delusional dogmas. I looked for deeper truths and kept going.
I do believe that Jesus Christ and Gautama Buddha were able to construct astral bodies. But much of what Jesus taught was corrupted by the Roman Empire when Christianity became the official Roman religion. The bible, as you read it now, is lacking many important details. Recently when we discovered the Gnostic Gospels at Nag Hammadi, we learned that there were entire gospels that were purposefully destroyed by the Catholic church. When I read these books such as the Gospel of Thomas, I see my own path in the words of Jesus. My personal belief is that the four gospels in the modern bible are a comic-book style adaptation of the life of Jesus meant for people with orally transmitted cultures. They were meant to be understood as allegory, but I digress.
I know that if you are reading some random person’s spiritual text on the Internet, there is no way to fact check it in the modern sense. And yes, you have to prove this to yourself. The only way to test these theories is to practice them. But I have seen these practices transform my being from a rather profane child into a calm and compassionate adult. Also, please throw out your ideas of what an “enlightened person” acts like. The notion of what an enlightened person is has been purposefully destroyed so as to throw off the scent of what Jesus called the Kingdom of Heaven.
I know that I am meant to share my path with others. I probably will be persecuted for it. You can call the force that works against the truth of God, the devil, but I think of it more as a weight that slows us down and confuses our mind. Without this weight, they would not be able to use this simulation to weed out those who are unworthy of living in their beautiful world outside of the simulation. This life is a test. If you do not strive, you will go nowhere. You will start as dust and end as dust, a clueless automaton feeding its base needs with non-nutritive junk experiences.
Many do achieve. Many do make it out. But it is not guaranteed. And if you fail, you will not go to hell forever and be tormented. You will just fall asleep and never again wake up, a tiny blip in the cosmic drama. But if you seek, you will find. If you knock, the door will be opened to you. May you find your way out of the maze and into the embrace of a loving creator, outside of the simulation, home at last.
The key to happiness is to recognize where the river of your fate and try and align with it. If you’re in a raft and the river turns left but you just really wanna go right, you’re gonna hit a bank. Stay in the water, follow the stream. How you do that? It’s complicated, but don’t think reality can really fit in your head. We just have elaborate conceptual maps of reality in our head. But out there, in the wilderness, is the real real. And it is alive and trying to contact you. There is intelligent love in the universe, and you have a receiver for its communications called your brain and spinal cord.
It’s way better than Netflix or video games. It’s called the logos, the word, daimon, guide, etc. It has the answers to your questions, but it won’t tell you everything. It will tell you just enough to light the river in front of you. It is your lamp, but it is only a lamp. The idea that spirit will totally make you manifest everything you want is specious. It will give you crumbs, your daily bread.
The great all or God or Brahman or Allah cannot fit in your brain. Your brain is a God dissecting device. God is the totality, and every word is a dissection of that. Like the tao, it cannot be spoken. Words divide and section things apart. God can only be felt by the heart of the mystic, expressed in a joyous smile, or felt in the in the twirl of a sufi dancer spinning to experience rapture.
God cannot be communicated. The Tao Te Ching says “those who know do not speak, and those who speak do not know.” Our network cables called language cannot handle the infinite bandwidth of the totality which cannot be named. The teacher can only point at the moon, he cannot give you the moon. So I think it’s best to end this post with a big fat nothing, called…
I think one of the best lessons I’ve learned while living in hardship is that you can always see the stars. You can always see the heavens, even when you are trapped in the mud or the gutter. You can feel real divinity and happiness and joy no matter how poor you are. You can feel peace no matter how many walls exist in front of you. Usually, we do that through our profession. We reach for the stars and find inner purpose in life through small tasks of seemingly benign averageness. I reach because I need to. I’ve survived so much deprivation. So, I have been broken down by grief. And now, I feel liberated. And so I reach. And I feel another hand reaching down.